And To Think I Saw It On Mulberry Street

If only

If only I could run faster, I could get away from here.
If only I could get away from here, you wouldn't be near.
If only you weren't near, I'd have no fear.
If only I had no fear, I wouldn't strain to hear
If only I wouldn't strain to hear, normal friends would not steer clear.
If only normals friends would not steer clear, I would not cry a tear.
If I don't want to cry, I better start running.

Your face digs itself into my brain,
I feel mangled but show no pain,
So still you claw deeper,
and kill the gate's keeper,
The problems that don't hide,
Fuck around on the outside,
These demons will never leave station,
Even if I destroy the nation,
Kill the problem at the source,
Get rid of you by force,
I can't believe I cared for you,
And maybe at one time you loved me too,
Now both hearts are cold and blue,
And the time has come Lord how true,
This hour we have come upon,
And Death is searching for someone,
At this point I don't care,
Cause Earth was never fair,
And because your help,
I somehow blame myself.