And To Think I Saw It On Mulberry Street

The Lost Boy

Can't find my soul yet, so I figured since this quiz has a lot more questions, I might get closer to inner peace.

Current Mood: empty
Current clothes: jeans and shirt
Current annoyance: allergens
Current smell: nothing my nose is stuffed up

Current thing: pop music
Current windows open: this
Current desktop picture: aliens invading squee's bedroom
Current favorite band/artist: bloodhound gang/taproot/shadowy men on a shadowy planet
Current book: Tuck Everlasting, Slaughterhouse 5

Current cd in stereo: savvy show stoppers-shadowy men on a shadowy planet
Current hate: everything but sprite

= Do You =
Smoke?:no
Do drugs?:no Have a dream that keeps coming back?: the one where im in a quartet with josh boomer and some other guy and lance is our manager
Remember your first girlfriend/boyfriend? try not to
Still talk to him/her?: nope
Read the newspaper?: the comics and occasionally the frontpage headline
Believe in miracles?: sometimes
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: not always
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: yup
Consider love a mistake?: sometimes
Like the taste of alcohol?: not really
Have a favorite candy?: gum
Believe in astrology?:barely
Believe in magic?: in a young girls heart? Believe in God?: sometimes
Have any pets: yes got goldfish today
plan to go to college: sometimes
Have any piercings?: this one from my mouth to my anus hXc
Have any tattoos?: maybe
Hate yourself: always

Have an obsession?: depends on your definition
Have a secret crush?: too many
Do they know yet?: probably im bad with secrets
Have a best friend?: sometimes
=Love life=


First crush: katie mace Single or attached?: single as always
Ever been in love?: i couldnt say
Do you believe in love at first sight?: I'd like to
Do you believe in "the one?": I'd like to
Describe your ideal significant other: there's a passage from a book i have if you really cared

=Juicy stuff=


Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: i strip in front of the mirror if that counts
Have you ever been intoxicated?: maybe
Favorite place to be kissed?: on my skin
Are you a tease?: i wish
Shy to make the first move?: yup
=Word association=


Rubber: neck
Green: giant
Peanut: butter and jelly
Hay: bale Cold: soup
Steamy: spa
Fast: times at ridgemont high

--LAST THING YOU:--
Bought: soda
Ate: hamburger
Drank: soda
Read: similar "quiz" or whatever
Watched on tv: arrested development
--EITHER / OR:--


club or houseparty: houseparty
drinks or shots: drinks
cats or dogs: dogs because i'm a MAN
single or taken: single
pen or pencil: pen
gloves or mittens: mittens food or candy: food
cassette or cd: cds
coke or pepsi: coke
this or that: that


--LAST PERSON YOU--


talked to: daniel
hugged: grandma
instant messaged: michel
kissed: the cowardly lion

--HAVE YOU EVER...--

Dated one of your best friends?: no
Loved somebody so much it makes you cry?: yup
Drank alcohol?: no
Done drugs?: no
Broken the law?: Shot a man in Reno just to watch him die if that counts
Broken a bone?: no
Played Truth Or Dare?: not that i remember
Kissed someone you didn't know?: not that i remember
Been in a fight?: not that i remember
Come close to dying?: indeed

--WHAT IS:--


The most embarrassing CD in your collection?: none im proud of them all
Your bedroom like?: white with posters
Your favorite thing for breakfast?: raisin bran
Your favorite restaurant?: kiki's
--RANDOM QUESTIONS--


What's on your bedside table?: lamp and off-the-wall calendar
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?: water
What is your biggest fear?: that my life will end with nothing accomplished and bugs
Do you ever have to beg?: for attention
Do you have too many love interests?: too many like interests
Describe your bed: horrible
Do you know how to play poker?: yup first you pok' 'er then you kick the living shit out of 'er
What do you carry with you at all times?: keys wallet phone
How do you drive?: with my feet and hands
What do you miss most about being little?: having all that free time
Are you happy with your name?: if it sounded a little more grown up without changing it
How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year?: depends

What color is your bedroom?: white i already said
What was the last song you were listening to?: what its like by everlast
Do you talk a lot?: i think so but many disagree
Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?: barely
Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?: depends on what you mean
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?: compared to most yes
Do you spend more time with your girlfriend, boyfriend, or your friends?: my girlfriend tiffany

Sexy Beast

So, David Lujan and I are moving tables around at a forever undisclosed location. He's setting out all these ugly ass tables, so I tell him to put the other ones out. He says "Why?" and I say "Because they're pretty." This led to him calling one table a "her" and my girlfriend, but I laid it down right there and told him "Her name's Tiffany." The rest of this post is just juvenielle table-humor,(I came up with the name just now.) so feel free to read on at your own risk. I cut out all the parts where I dry-hump the table becuase, quite frankly, it was tasteless.
David went on to say "Well, why don't you like her over there?" He was referring to a table that was covered in paint and partially melted. So, I say "'Cause she's fucking dirrrrty." Then he dropped Tiffany because he didn't set up her legs right, so I yelled at him "Don't you ever treat her that way again or I'll break your neck!" Later, I had her pointed straight up for some reason(refer to earlier dry-humping note) and David started groping her where she would have boobs if SHE was real and said "Look where I'm touching her." So, I said to him "You shouldn't do that. Besides, her legs are her best feature. They curve all the way down."(GET IT! Table legs!) We were trying to put the tables in a certain arrangement and, while talking about Tiffany, David said "She doesn't fit in here." I told him "I agree. She belongs in the middle with all the other tables circled around bowing down to her,(which we set up later just to see what a table god would look like) but she has to be pushed in with these shit ass tables." That has to be the worst line of all the bad ones. To think that it all descended down from David's stupid girlfriend joke. Why must I stoop to the level of twelve-year-olds to be funny?

"She's got legs. She knows how to use them."

Do you realize what this means?

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	11
your best quality is	people envy you
your worst quality is	youre a litle vain (who isnt)
this is because	youre unique
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I really am God.

I'm so high on sugar right now...

my heart's going to explode. Four in the morning and here I am. How I love Easter? I only consume el puro azuca. Not to mention Jason Vorhees has been chasing me around the house.

I need so much more joy than one life can give

Fuck it all.

"Everything I feel for you is everything."

And it spews from me

Fuck. Does life bore the fuck out of me? Bunch of assholes running to me with their stupid as shit problems and after I try my best to fix them in hope for something like decent friendship in return for going out of my way, listening to their dumbasses, and figuring out something for them to do. Everyone turns their backs on me and lets me forage for myself whenever I need anything. That they don't want to get involved in things that don't concern them after I dive headfirst into the stool they call life.
I should have done it when I had the chance.
Everyone making me a god damned leper all of the sudden. Casting me out when they are the ones whining about their friends running away from them and leaving them out to dry. Serves you right, fucks. I wasn't built for this place. I'm not supposed to be here. Be Mr. Nice Guy no matter what. Why the fuck do I even think of foing that? Because I don't want to see people get hurt? Fuck them. The only thing where I ever come close to revealing my true feelings is this stupid fucking computer and blog and it is nothing like screaming in someone's face. And still I have to hide things because for some reason people read this, so I can't name names because I wouldn't want them reading it and getting their feelings hurt then just hiding their pain as they type their stupider than fuck words from miles away. I can't comprehend when people are emotional so why does everyone come to me with their problems. Even I sit here, with every single emotion I have locked in a stronghold where no one will ever come again if I can help it, yet I type light-hearted words. Everything's water on a duck's back for Robbie Rayas, but still people get mad at me for my insensitivity. Fuck you. Nobody ever asks me how the fuck I'm feeling.

Sometimes: Excerpts from the Mind of a Madman

Sometimes I have dreams that make absolutely no sense at all. Well, last night I didn't have one of those. In fact, it may be true about how I feel right now. First, it started out as an episode of "That 70's Show" where Donna was going up to Makeout Point with....Jackie(Shocked? As was I.) and Eric doesn't even care except that he's trying to sneak into the car when they're going to take off so he can watch. Then they take off and Eric turns into Kelly and gets jealous. Meanwhile, Jackie turns into some Oriental and Donna turns into Veronica with dyed blonde hair to where she looked like Gwen Stefani(which is a good thing) and they were going to prom together. So Kelly tells me to go with him to help get Vero back so we hop in his muscle car and drive there. When we get there, Vero and the girl are waiting outside for us with Natalie, who is at the prom with Mike Villegas(the idiot senior one) of all people. Everyone is wearing black, except for the ghetto fabulous people just walking around in the back. Then, Kelly turns into Joe(the Jewish one) and he doesn't care about Vero and the girl anymore, so everyone's happy. Then, we are all going to go somewhere so I walk with Joe to his truck so we can go when, all of the sudden, Joe changes into Josh(the Lacaca one) and the truck changes into Josh's car(the green one). As we are getting into the car, I say it's bullshit that he drives without getting a license and he just laughs his little laugh. Then, he changes back into Joe and the truck won't start. So, I get out and figure I'll walk or something. I start walking towards the street and the parking lot is as big as one at a mall, so I hop on a shopping cart(because what else is there to use?) and start pushing myself towards the end. While I'm pushing, I see my brother wearing this snow camouflage vest and he's hanging out with some shopping cart gang. Finally, I reach the end and I see everyone in their nice clothes sitting on the dirty sidewalk waiting for me. I think the dream has something to do with NHI.
Today on Channel One, they said it was the last episode and I felt my heart drop and almost cried. Then they say it was just a big April Fool's joke. Son of whores. NEVER JOKE LIKE THAT!
Well it seems as if my new year finally started on this false New Year. Finally, I find a girl. Purr-fect timing considering every other girl's apathetic/snot-nosed attitude toward me. After almost two years without a legitimate relationship, here I am standing on top of the world. Ah yes perfect indeed.

"As I smell you for the first time all over again, I'll begin to remember to be alive."
(April Fool's! There's no one for me. Here's the real one.)
"All of us are searching for an open arm.
Well, it's a shame how I curl up in the dark
When it's the same old word giving me the spark."